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Showing posts with label emily. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emily. Show all posts
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Just a Vent, thanks.
I just need to vent. Please........I live my life looking out a window, literally. Glad to be alive but so lonely. No one calls, no one visits, no one cares......that is the way I feel today. I used to write alot, chat with a few friends or at least hear from them.....no one will get it through their head that I can not come visit if it is below Indian River, Michigan. I've done it and paid a high price every time. I can't go see my son, his wife and my grandchildren because I can't drive on the road to get to them, thanks Halliburton. My son lives maybe 2 hours away and I haven't seen him since Feb. I suppose he doesn't have much to compare to, we lived 30 miles from his fathers parents and rarely saw them. I would have liked to have seen them more but life goes on and children to be raised (no matter how unforgiving I seem to have been as a mother I've been told in a round about way.)
I want to visit my daughter but she very quickly said I shouldn't come down there. Was it because of all the pollution that would land me in the hospital and make it a nightmare for my daughter, which I would never want to do, or was that a trip out west with.....oh, it doesn't matter anymore. I love them anyway.
My lungs have been so good. The rest of my body is slowly deteriorating. I had such hopes, joe was going to enlarge the bathroom so I could get the larger tube in so I could do my physical therapy at home instead of driving an hour and saving lots of money. That is by the wayside too. There isn't any money or help to do it. Our bed is now downstairs permanently because the stairs are too hard to go up and down. Seeing as I fell down them last weekend when I was so frustrated to be at this time of my life and I can't afford a bathtub.
The ambulance run sucked but at least I didn't break anything. I don't want to do that again.
I am not ungrateful or whining I just need to vent because I don't think anyone REALLY knows what it is like to have your life turned upside down and "normal" life taken away by an industry. I just want a "friend" or child to tell me "it's ok, I won't desert you". I look around, yup deserted. It isn't that I haven't tried. It was great at our wedding when most of my closests friends were there and now they're gone.
I have asked Joe to tell his family why I don't visit and maybe they could visit me but he doesn't. It isn't important enough to him because he hasn't been where I am, not really.
I love my joe so much but when it comes down to it he forgets....forgets how painful it is to walk most days, how lonely is it to watch out the window and watch the few cars drive by. I can't clean very well because of the cleaners and joe is has many other things to do then to worry about what the house looks like. I try not to ask. I can't ask extended family Marianne and girls because we can't afford to pay anyone much and they were the only ones who would say "hey come over for dinner" or call to see how things were going. Those calls have stopped. No pity party just reality.
John and I did a craft show yesterday, he makes my beeswax candles, and it was so nice but hot to be outside. It was too hot to wear my mask but I tried. Joe forgets I've had a "stroke" and "should be responsible for myself"....I'm not able to be sometimes, especially during a "crisis" as I call them when I can't walk or move or whatever this muscular disease is going to give me day to day among other medical issues. Maybe I am jealous, he has so much energy and gets up and is ready to go for the day when I drag myself to the couch, or van seat which is ok, and some days can't function. I try to talk to Joe but it usually ends up he is right and I am wrong, I don't need that. If I shut down emotionally, which I am working at, then I won't communicate with him anymore and there goes that marriage! Actually I know my marriage is good. I just want the damn bathroom and his non chalent attitude about it hurts me.
I have so much life left in me but I want ANYONE to call or visit or listen or help. I know that is too much to ask of anyone. I have no family, except my children who I love dearly but they have no room for a mom. I miss my "sister" in England so much. We miss each other so much. Oh well.
I just feel like an ugly, useless blob that is no good to anyone. I think of all those people I wanted to help in my life and even now. But, you never give unless you expect nothing in return and that is how I lived but now I need help and no one is around but I expected nothing in return those years ago but never realizing I would need help physically.
Thanks for letting me vent. I know there are more far worse off than I but today it is me. Looking out the window with all the sunshine wondering how I will make it through this day, mostly alone and feeling useless. I didn't use to be this way. I just need help and there is no one to help. Well, I hope there is sunshine or rain, whichever you need, and you are enjoying life. Please enjoy life because you never know when life you know will be gone.
jaime
I want to visit my daughter but she very quickly said I shouldn't come down there. Was it because of all the pollution that would land me in the hospital and make it a nightmare for my daughter, which I would never want to do, or was that a trip out west with.....oh, it doesn't matter anymore. I love them anyway.
My lungs have been so good. The rest of my body is slowly deteriorating. I had such hopes, joe was going to enlarge the bathroom so I could get the larger tube in so I could do my physical therapy at home instead of driving an hour and saving lots of money. That is by the wayside too. There isn't any money or help to do it. Our bed is now downstairs permanently because the stairs are too hard to go up and down. Seeing as I fell down them last weekend when I was so frustrated to be at this time of my life and I can't afford a bathtub.
The ambulance run sucked but at least I didn't break anything. I don't want to do that again.
I am not ungrateful or whining I just need to vent because I don't think anyone REALLY knows what it is like to have your life turned upside down and "normal" life taken away by an industry. I just want a "friend" or child to tell me "it's ok, I won't desert you". I look around, yup deserted. It isn't that I haven't tried. It was great at our wedding when most of my closests friends were there and now they're gone.
I have asked Joe to tell his family why I don't visit and maybe they could visit me but he doesn't. It isn't important enough to him because he hasn't been where I am, not really.
I love my joe so much but when it comes down to it he forgets....forgets how painful it is to walk most days, how lonely is it to watch out the window and watch the few cars drive by. I can't clean very well because of the cleaners and joe is has many other things to do then to worry about what the house looks like. I try not to ask. I can't ask extended family Marianne and girls because we can't afford to pay anyone much and they were the only ones who would say "hey come over for dinner" or call to see how things were going. Those calls have stopped. No pity party just reality.
John and I did a craft show yesterday, he makes my beeswax candles, and it was so nice but hot to be outside. It was too hot to wear my mask but I tried. Joe forgets I've had a "stroke" and "should be responsible for myself"....I'm not able to be sometimes, especially during a "crisis" as I call them when I can't walk or move or whatever this muscular disease is going to give me day to day among other medical issues. Maybe I am jealous, he has so much energy and gets up and is ready to go for the day when I drag myself to the couch, or van seat which is ok, and some days can't function. I try to talk to Joe but it usually ends up he is right and I am wrong, I don't need that. If I shut down emotionally, which I am working at, then I won't communicate with him anymore and there goes that marriage! Actually I know my marriage is good. I just want the damn bathroom and his non chalent attitude about it hurts me.
I have so much life left in me but I want ANYONE to call or visit or listen or help. I know that is too much to ask of anyone. I have no family, except my children who I love dearly but they have no room for a mom. I miss my "sister" in England so much. We miss each other so much. Oh well.
I just feel like an ugly, useless blob that is no good to anyone. I think of all those people I wanted to help in my life and even now. But, you never give unless you expect nothing in return and that is how I lived but now I need help and no one is around but I expected nothing in return those years ago but never realizing I would need help physically.
Thanks for letting me vent. I know there are more far worse off than I but today it is me. Looking out the window with all the sunshine wondering how I will make it through this day, mostly alone and feeling useless. I didn't use to be this way. I just need help and there is no one to help. Well, I hope there is sunshine or rain, whichever you need, and you are enjoying life. Please enjoy life because you never know when life you know will be gone.
jaime
Saturday, July 30, 2011
AT CHEBOYGAN STREET FAIR EMILYS BEESWAX ITEMS
EMILY'S BEESWAX ITEMS IS AT THE STREET FAIR IN CHEBOYGAN, MICHIGAN TODAY AT THE MUSIC FESTIVAL FROM 10-3 PM.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
More on nuclear plant
http://digg.com/news/politics/us_orders_news_blackout_over_crippled_nebraska_nuclear_plant_report
more proof of nuclear plant. Always need proof.
more proof of nuclear plant. Always need proof.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
FLOODING IN CHEBOYGAN
Handy Joe has been getting lots of calls from family and friends cause they know he has just about anything. That hoarding tools and machinery paid off for ya honey! LOL
Friday, April 8, 2011
Radiation map, FYI interesting
http://www.radiationnetwork.com/
Folks, we appreciate your interest in the Radiation Network, but please read the Message page in lieu of, or before emailing us. We update it as frequently as daily, and it will answer a lot of your questions.
Welcome to RadiationNetwork.com, home of the National Radiation Map, depicting environmental radiation levels across the USA, updated in real time every minute. This is the first web site where the average citizen (or anyone in the world) can see what radiation levels are anywhere in the USA at any time (see Disclaimer below).
Nuclear Site Alert Level = 100 CPM
How the Map Works:
A growing number of Radiation Monitoring Stations across the country, using various models of GeigerCounters, upload their Radiation Count data in real time to their computer using a Data Cable, and then over the Internet to this web site, all of this accomplished through GeigerGraph for Networks software. This system is completely automated - there is no manual posting of data required.
How to Read the Map:
Referring to the Map Legend at the bottom left corner of the map, locate Monitoring Stations around the country that are contributing radiation data to this map as you read this, and watch the numbers on those monitoring stations update as frequently as every minute (your browser will automatically refresh). The numbers represent radiation Counts per Minute, abbreviated CPM, and under normal conditions, quantify the level of background radiation, i.e. environmental radiation from outer space as well as from the earth's crust and air. Depending on your location within the US, your elevation or altitude, and your model of Geiger counter, this background radiation level might average anywhere from 5 to 60 CPM, and while background radiation levels are random, it would be unusual for those levels to exceed 100 CPM. Thus, the "Alert Level" for the National Radiation Map is 100 CPM, so if you see any Monitoring Stations with CPM value above 100, further indicated by an Alert symbol over those stations, it probably means that some radioactive source above and beyond background radiation is responsible.
Notice the Time and Date Stamp at the bottom center of the Map. That is Arizona Time, from where we service the Network, and your indication of how recently the Radiation Levels have been updated to the Map.
How to Participate in the Nationwide Radiation Network:
If you want to join this nationwide grass roots effort to monitor the radiation in our environment, then this is all you need (click on the Software link):
In fact, if you become an active participant in this network (instead of just a passive viewer of this website), the GeigerGraph software that you use will incorporate the same Radiation Map as above, but your map will be fully interactive, with zoom capabilities, descriptions of Nuclear Sites and Monitoring Stations, additional Map Layers, including Counties, Airports, Roads, Railroads, Lakes and Rivers, and even the capability to download City Streets for your county. Plus, in keeping with the elements of a true Network, the GeigerGraph software has its own Chat forum.
Compatible Geiger Counter Models:
Most of these models, as well as the GeigerGraph for Networks software, are available at GeigerCounters.com, a web site operated by Mineralab. Click on the text hyperlinks in the previous sentence to go there. You can also contact us here:
Mineralab, LLC
2860 W. Live Oak Drive
Prescott, AZ 86305 USA
Folks, we appreciate your interest in the Radiation Network, but please read the Message page in lieu of, or before emailing us. We update it as frequently as daily, and it will answer a lot of your questions.
Email: minlab@mineralab.com
Disclaimer: Mineralab, LLC, the operator of this web site, can not independently verify that the Radiation Levels, or any Radiation Alerts, that are displayed on this Radiation Map are correct and valid. Among other possibilities, Geiger counter malfunctions or proximity of the counters to certain medical procedures or to radioactive items can cause high readings at a Monitoring Station. If the Radiation Map appears to show elevated Radiation levels, contact Mineralab.
Click here for a Map of Japan
Click here for a Map of Alaska and Hawaii
Click here for a Map of Europe
Welcome to RadiationNetwork.com, home of the National Radiation Map, depicting environmental radiation levels across the USA, updated in real time every minute. This is the first web site where the average citizen (or anyone in the world) can see what radiation levels are anywhere in the USA at any time (see Disclaimer below).
Nuclear Site Alert Level = 100 CPMHow the Map Works:
A growing number of Radiation Monitoring Stations across the country, using various models of GeigerCounters, upload their Radiation Count data in real time to their computer using a Data Cable, and then over the Internet to this web site, all of this accomplished through GeigerGraph for Networks software. This system is completely automated - there is no manual posting of data required.
How to Read the Map:
Referring to the Map Legend at the bottom left corner of the map, locate Monitoring Stations around the country that are contributing radiation data to this map as you read this, and watch the numbers on those monitoring stations update as frequently as every minute (your browser will automatically refresh). The numbers represent radiation Counts per Minute, abbreviated CPM, and under normal conditions, quantify the level of background radiation, i.e. environmental radiation from outer space as well as from the earth's crust and air. Depending on your location within the US, your elevation or altitude, and your model of Geiger counter, this background radiation level might average anywhere from 5 to 60 CPM, and while background radiation levels are random, it would be unusual for those levels to exceed 100 CPM. Thus, the "Alert Level" for the National Radiation Map is 100 CPM, so if you see any Monitoring Stations with CPM value above 100, further indicated by an Alert symbol over those stations, it probably means that some radioactive source above and beyond background radiation is responsible.
Notice the Time and Date Stamp at the bottom center of the Map. That is Arizona Time, from where we service the Network, and your indication of how recently the Radiation Levels have been updated to the Map.
How to Participate in the Nationwide Radiation Network:
If you want to join this nationwide grass roots effort to monitor the radiation in our environment, then this is all you need (click on the Software link):
 | Compatible Geiger Counter (See models below) |
| GeigerGraph Software and Data Cable |
| Computer with Windows Operating System |
| Internet Access (Direct connection preferred) |
Compatible Geiger Counter Models:
| The Geiger |
| Monitor 4 (yr 2008 redesign) |
| Radalert, Radalert 50 and Radalert 100 |
| Digilert 50 and Digilert 100 |
| palmRAD |
| CRM-100 |
| Inspector |
| Inspector EXP |
Mineralab, LLC
2860 W. Live Oak Drive
Prescott, AZ 86305 USA
Folks, we appreciate your interest in the Radiation Network, but please read the Message page in lieu of, or before emailing us. We update it as frequently as daily, and it will answer a lot of your questions.
Email: minlab@mineralab.com
Click here for a Map of Alaska and Hawaii
Click here for a Map of Europe
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Follow Radiation map! Get prepared!
http://www.zamg.ac.at/aktuell/index.php?seite=1&artikel=ZAMG_2011-03-15GMT08%3A26
Check out this link for the radiation that is coming our way; it is in a different language but the pictures show what you need.
Check out this link for the radiation that is coming our way; it is in a different language but the pictures show what you need.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
What To Say Today Hmmm.....
Woke up to snow coming down. It was winter, what were we expecting? Oh I hate the cold LOL. All wrapped up in my blanket, sitting at the computer and smiling because the heat just came on and a heat vent was right at my feet. AHHHHH.
I felt the need to expand on our "Wednesdays". We joke that if the neighbors didn't see Ex's #3 car at our house it would throw off their week. Yeah, he's my ex husband, yeah, there were problems-that is an understatement-but as I got older I realized my family was gone (except my children of course) and my friends were my family. Ex-husband #3 was kind of in the same position. After everything we had gone through we finally realised we needed each other.
My joe was ok with that. Joe knows how much I love him.
I just thought of a reason for writing today, not that I needed one, today would have been our (Ex husband #3) 8 year wedding anniversary. I'm sure there had to be a card for that.
I felt a bit melancholy about it. So much hurt and laughter. I choose to remember the good things from any relationship I had been in when some are stuck on the negative.
The relationships I had been in over my life had impacted me in a different way every time. Joe got what resulted from the other men, some good, some not so good. Each in their own way gave me the tools to be the strong, surviving, woman I am today. I was proud to having known each of them.
One has part of my heart forever. That heart had been healing more over the years which was good for Joe.
Another thought running through that head of mine.
I felt the need to expand on our "Wednesdays". We joke that if the neighbors didn't see Ex's #3 car at our house it would throw off their week. Yeah, he's my ex husband, yeah, there were problems-that is an understatement-but as I got older I realized my family was gone (except my children of course) and my friends were my family. Ex-husband #3 was kind of in the same position. After everything we had gone through we finally realised we needed each other.
My joe was ok with that. Joe knows how much I love him.
I just thought of a reason for writing today, not that I needed one, today would have been our (Ex husband #3) 8 year wedding anniversary. I'm sure there had to be a card for that.
I felt a bit melancholy about it. So much hurt and laughter. I choose to remember the good things from any relationship I had been in when some are stuck on the negative.
The relationships I had been in over my life had impacted me in a different way every time. Joe got what resulted from the other men, some good, some not so good. Each in their own way gave me the tools to be the strong, surviving, woman I am today. I was proud to having known each of them.
One has part of my heart forever. That heart had been healing more over the years which was good for Joe.
Another thought running through that head of mine.
Monday, February 21, 2011
I'm back to All My X's Aren't From Texas
Took a while but I'm back with All my ex's aren't from texas.
Took a minor gas and oil detour. I am good getting off the main subject.
Now, you know it'd wierd when your present husband (I love you honey-kiss up points LOL) and your ex husband are in the same room. That was wierd enough, I know! To turn to husband #3 and ask him about something in our marriage that was pertinent to the convesation with my present (and last) husband is just wierd. None of that made sense but you just had to be there. LOL It ended up a friend that was visiting said to me and husband #3, we sounded like an old married couple. I couldn't stop laughing, it was so wierd.
My children may not understand but I chose to put things that happened between husband #3 and me in the past. My kids know some of it and are wondering what I am doing. It's my choice to forgive but a harder time with the forgetting part. I'm working on it. I would rather have had an ex as a friend than not. Yes, there was one in all this story who refused to have that thought process but it was his loss and I had to respect that. I always tried to be a loyal friend even when our time was over. I'll try to leave it at that, try I said LOL. I have the up most respect for my friends.
Anyway, we had gotten used to and in the habit, even look forward to our weekly Wednesday visits with husband #3 or now known as my friend John. Other friends come around and we just shoot the bull, as we americans say. We laughed, we argued-hmmmm debated, and had a good cup of coffee. I do not make coffee (a request made by others LOL.)
There is only one Ex I haven't talked about, boyfriend or husband. I don't know that I could. I would just leave it at that for the moment.
Oh, jeez there was a mouse that ran across the top of the computer table, gotta go......Jooooeeeeeeeeee!
Took a minor gas and oil detour. I am good getting off the main subject.
Now, you know it'd wierd when your present husband (I love you honey-kiss up points LOL) and your ex husband are in the same room. That was wierd enough, I know! To turn to husband #3 and ask him about something in our marriage that was pertinent to the convesation with my present (and last) husband is just wierd. None of that made sense but you just had to be there. LOL It ended up a friend that was visiting said to me and husband #3, we sounded like an old married couple. I couldn't stop laughing, it was so wierd.
My children may not understand but I chose to put things that happened between husband #3 and me in the past. My kids know some of it and are wondering what I am doing. It's my choice to forgive but a harder time with the forgetting part. I'm working on it. I would rather have had an ex as a friend than not. Yes, there was one in all this story who refused to have that thought process but it was his loss and I had to respect that. I always tried to be a loyal friend even when our time was over. I'll try to leave it at that, try I said LOL. I have the up most respect for my friends.
Anyway, we had gotten used to and in the habit, even look forward to our weekly Wednesday visits with husband #3 or now known as my friend John. Other friends come around and we just shoot the bull, as we americans say. We laughed, we argued-hmmmm debated, and had a good cup of coffee. I do not make coffee (a request made by others LOL.)
There is only one Ex I haven't talked about, boyfriend or husband. I don't know that I could. I would just leave it at that for the moment.
Oh, jeez there was a mouse that ran across the top of the computer table, gotta go......Jooooeeeeeeeeee!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
OOPS
MAY I JUST SAY, I AM NOT PANICKING I AM JUST SENDING ALONG INFORMATION FOUND AND FOUND IT INTERESTING. No panic, just fine. Just needed to clarify after a couple emails I got. 
I think every mother wants their children around them when they read crap like that.
As my husband says Be Prepared Not Scared. And laugh a lot.
jaime
Northern Michigan
ps. also sent original through different blog first time, sorry.
"Be the change that you want to see in the world" Mahatma Ghandi
"Weebles wobble but they don't fall down!" Perfect!
I blog at oilandgasinnorthernmichigan.blogspot.com & http://myspace.com/bigoilinsmalltownamerica
http://www.etsy.com/shop/emilysbeeswaxitems my beeswax lip balm
I think every mother wants their children around them when they read crap like that.
As my husband says Be Prepared Not Scared. And laugh a lot.
jaime
Northern Michigan
ps. also sent original through different blog first time, sorry.
"Be the change that you want to see in the world" Mahatma Ghandi
"Weebles wobble but they don't fall down!" Perfect!
I blog at oilandgasinnorthernmichigan.blogspot.com & http://myspace.com/bigoilinsmalltownamerica
http://www.etsy.com/shop/emilysbeeswaxitems my beeswax lip balm
On Tue, Jan 18, 2011 at 10:13 PM, EMILY <sewingmumandmore@yahoo.com> wrote:
[http://do1thing.com/about.php]
Do1Thing
There is a black and white emergency preparedness on the tv lately. It references this website. Which redirects to Michigan Emergency Preparedness page.
Hmmmm, they seem to be pushing this with other commercials also. What will happen in one year as I read in to it. Makes me want to get my
family all in one place and just be with one another. If major catastrophe occurs families will and may be separated forever. This is so scary.
jaime
Northern Michigan
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Posted By EMILY to Emilys at 1/18/2011 05:13:00 PM
Friday, July 23, 2010
THE PHONE IS RINGING!
OH my, the day I have been looking forward to since starting our oil and gas fight has arrived. The door has been opened for me to EDUCATE people on the health affects of this industry. Networking is paying off as well as knowing people or putting that editorial in the local paper has my phone ringing. It is exciting but overwhelming.
Here is the lowdown for the last few days. Josh who made Gasland has asked me to the Traverse City Movie Festival to tell my story of what the industry has done to me and my family. I am getting the movie "Split Estate" which is similiar to Gasland but put together by the Mass. Institute of Techn (MIT). Also met up with a woman who was at the recent citizens meeting about the new drilling and she wants me to contact other organizations since I know my stuff about gas and oil-she says. Also 2 contacts from the class reunion we went to last weekend. Oh, yeah, that one lady I met at the grocery store.
The door has been opened to educate people on the affects of this industry. I hope I can do it all. Joe (husband #4) is behind me so we'll see how it goes. I always told husband #3 I would end up on a morning show talking about this subject. He has no doubt.
All for now.
Here is the lowdown for the last few days. Josh who made Gasland has asked me to the Traverse City Movie Festival to tell my story of what the industry has done to me and my family. I am getting the movie "Split Estate" which is similiar to Gasland but put together by the Mass. Institute of Techn (MIT). Also met up with a woman who was at the recent citizens meeting about the new drilling and she wants me to contact other organizations since I know my stuff about gas and oil-she says. Also 2 contacts from the class reunion we went to last weekend. Oh, yeah, that one lady I met at the grocery store.
The door has been opened to educate people on the affects of this industry. I hope I can do it all. Joe (husband #4) is behind me so we'll see how it goes. I always told husband #3 I would end up on a morning show talking about this subject. He has no doubt.
All for now.
Monday, June 21, 2010
BACK TO MY BOOK....
Back to writing that book. Hmmm where was I? In the middle of some stuff. Oh, funny story......It was in the 1990's and it was snowing. A big snow storm. Husband #2 was at nursing school and I was home with my children. I love big snow storms. There is something about them. I wasn't feeling the excitement as I peered out the window and saw the snow piling up on the 350 foot driveway.
Hubby #2 wouldn't be able to get the truck in the driveway.
I was going to have to do something rarely done before...I had to plow..and this plowtruck was old, with no brakes and stick on the dash. Oh this was going to be interesting.
I bundled myself up as I told the kids to keep watching their movie and don't answer the phone. The standard things. There was no heat in this truck either so I dug for my mittens in the box by the front door. Yes, I found two. They didn't match but they would do the job.
I trudged over to wear the ol plow truck was nicely packed in. It looked like it didn't want to be moved. Well it did! I took the broom and shoved off about a foot of snow from the hood and windshield and opened the door. Promptly 2 mice jumped out of the truck. I wasn't very fond of mice and snow plowing.
Geez, could this get worse? I later learned never to say that because then you are guaranteed it will. OK,
I'm in the truck and it started! I didn't flood it this time! Yeehaw here I go. I made the first pass down the driveway fairly smoothly.
Feeling over confident I just knew I could pull out into the road and turn the truck around, with no breaks, and make that second pass down the driveway. First mistake. Then yes, that is what I tried to do. I was having the hardest time and decided to back into the drive way. I thought there might be enough room to turn the truck around. There seemed to be enough room between those two trees to try it. Guess what?
There wasn't and somehow I ended up wedged between two trees unable to budge an inch. At least I had enough room for hubby #2 to get in off the road.
He got home shortly after and saw me sitting in the truck wedged between two trees. I thought he was going to be mad. He got out of the car, in his snow gear, shaked his head as he opened the truck door which had stuck shut which was why I was still in it!
I didn't have to say a thing, it was too obvious. I walked back to the house and he unstuck the truck in just a few minutes. Man, did I feel stupid. I laugh about it now, every time I tell that story but I doubt I found it funny back then.
Really, just short funny diddy. I had a reputation of getting a nail and hammer and just start hanging things on the walls. Would drive hubby #2 nuts. If he would see me with a hammer and nails he would ask me what I was doing and gently take them from my hands. He would then hang what I wanted and put away the hammer. Even now when my kids see me with a hammer and nails they ask me suspiciously what I was up to.
I don't know if I shared that story with Joe (hubby#4 and current and last one) or not but he now asks me what I am doing if he sees the hammer and nails in my hand. I confess, usually the nail was bigger than I needed but I didn't want to look for the right one.
Hubby #2 wouldn't be able to get the truck in the driveway.
I was going to have to do something rarely done before...I had to plow..and this plowtruck was old, with no brakes and stick on the dash. Oh this was going to be interesting.
I bundled myself up as I told the kids to keep watching their movie and don't answer the phone. The standard things. There was no heat in this truck either so I dug for my mittens in the box by the front door. Yes, I found two. They didn't match but they would do the job.
I trudged over to wear the ol plow truck was nicely packed in. It looked like it didn't want to be moved. Well it did! I took the broom and shoved off about a foot of snow from the hood and windshield and opened the door. Promptly 2 mice jumped out of the truck. I wasn't very fond of mice and snow plowing.
Geez, could this get worse? I later learned never to say that because then you are guaranteed it will. OK,
I'm in the truck and it started! I didn't flood it this time! Yeehaw here I go. I made the first pass down the driveway fairly smoothly.
Feeling over confident I just knew I could pull out into the road and turn the truck around, with no breaks, and make that second pass down the driveway. First mistake. Then yes, that is what I tried to do. I was having the hardest time and decided to back into the drive way. I thought there might be enough room to turn the truck around. There seemed to be enough room between those two trees to try it. Guess what?
There wasn't and somehow I ended up wedged between two trees unable to budge an inch. At least I had enough room for hubby #2 to get in off the road.
He got home shortly after and saw me sitting in the truck wedged between two trees. I thought he was going to be mad. He got out of the car, in his snow gear, shaked his head as he opened the truck door which had stuck shut which was why I was still in it!
I didn't have to say a thing, it was too obvious. I walked back to the house and he unstuck the truck in just a few minutes. Man, did I feel stupid. I laugh about it now, every time I tell that story but I doubt I found it funny back then.
Really, just short funny diddy. I had a reputation of getting a nail and hammer and just start hanging things on the walls. Would drive hubby #2 nuts. If he would see me with a hammer and nails he would ask me what I was doing and gently take them from my hands. He would then hang what I wanted and put away the hammer. Even now when my kids see me with a hammer and nails they ask me suspiciously what I was up to.
I don't know if I shared that story with Joe (hubby#4 and current and last one) or not but he now asks me what I am doing if he sees the hammer and nails in my hand. I confess, usually the nail was bigger than I needed but I didn't want to look for the right one.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Another Beautiful Day in our neighborhood......
Beautiful day? Yeah, any day I wake up with my joe is a good day. How soppy that sounds. Almost made me want to hurl but that is how I am. Soppy. LOL Boyfriend #2 used to say I was a soppy thing. Emotional, oh yes, soppy? Yeah.
It can be a beautiful day because of the sunshine, but it is darn deceiving when I walk out that door. It is nipply as a friend would say. The wind off the nearby lake makes it cooler than just a block up the road. Strange, the life near the Great Lakes. The things I learned about those Lakes has been inspiring and confusing.
Off I go in a direction I have no idea where it is going but here we go.....
I didn't know that, and I can't remember the name of it, the water level will go down because the water in Lake Michigan slushed upward and left Chicago a bit low, and then it slushes back (I'm sure there is a technical name for it but who cares, it just slushes.)
Joe, husband #4, and he doesn't care if I use his name, is taking care of business. Not THAT business, well, not really. The sewer at the Parents house is backing up and it is a case of the City not wanting the responsibility so lets take advantage of some elderly folks. That is just MY opinion. Well, phooey on them! My joe found the sewer on a slap next door where the building had burned down. He is there digging it out and is going to try and tie into that one.
I could never have figured that out. This man is so handy. If it can't be made then it can't be made. He amazes me every day.
Oh it isn't all grins and giggles but honey, I've never been treated so good.
To be honest it is usually my german stubborness that gets me into trouble LOL.
I'm sure some of you have encountered that LOL. I'm stubborn yet persistant.
Don't get me started on my soap box about the oil and gas. I will drag my thoughts away from that....yes I am.....ok.
More unusual events in the last few days other than the sewer. Dad calls and I thought he meant Mom was in the hospital and something to do with the sewer, the city and fumes. That wasn't quite the case....lol
Joe and I run up to the hospital and it is Dad in the hospital for something unrelated to a sewer and Mom was home taking care of the sewer people. It was a confusing couple minutes but funny when you think about it.
I just got a phone call from a friend I see every Tuesday. She had been sick last week and we miss that weekly tradition. She brought up a point about how important family is. Now it isn't like it used to be. Families took care of each others and now that isn't the case. When I was at part of the sewer event I saw how Joe and some of his brothers and sisters come together and helped take care of a problem. It gave me goosebumps to see that and also sad because I want that so much in my own family. I have an extended family but I will always long for my own family, warts and all. The yoga tradition is about forgiveness and so is mine.
What happened was a long time ago and the last on high dose Prednisone, is enough to make anyone crazy. I am not a mean woman. I am a loving woman who would do anything for anybody who will be loyal to the death for family and friends.
My family who won't and can't see that are fools.
Didn't expect it to end this way today but did warn you in advance.
A feeling good day and turned the magnet on the fridge to a good day. Gives Joe a clue as to how I am on any day. Off to see what adventures I can find......
Have a good one and remember, live one day at a time, you don't know if tomorrow will come.
I almost forgot, if anyone knew my friend Arden, boyfriend #2 met her on the way to the airport years back. She was opinioned and always made me laugh. She died on March 11 and I found out recently. Rest in peace my friend.
It can be a beautiful day because of the sunshine, but it is darn deceiving when I walk out that door. It is nipply as a friend would say. The wind off the nearby lake makes it cooler than just a block up the road. Strange, the life near the Great Lakes. The things I learned about those Lakes has been inspiring and confusing.
Off I go in a direction I have no idea where it is going but here we go.....
I didn't know that, and I can't remember the name of it, the water level will go down because the water in Lake Michigan slushed upward and left Chicago a bit low, and then it slushes back (I'm sure there is a technical name for it but who cares, it just slushes.)
Joe, husband #4, and he doesn't care if I use his name, is taking care of business. Not THAT business, well, not really. The sewer at the Parents house is backing up and it is a case of the City not wanting the responsibility so lets take advantage of some elderly folks. That is just MY opinion. Well, phooey on them! My joe found the sewer on a slap next door where the building had burned down. He is there digging it out and is going to try and tie into that one.
I could never have figured that out. This man is so handy. If it can't be made then it can't be made. He amazes me every day.
Oh it isn't all grins and giggles but honey, I've never been treated so good.
To be honest it is usually my german stubborness that gets me into trouble LOL.
I'm sure some of you have encountered that LOL. I'm stubborn yet persistant.
Don't get me started on my soap box about the oil and gas. I will drag my thoughts away from that....yes I am.....ok.
More unusual events in the last few days other than the sewer. Dad calls and I thought he meant Mom was in the hospital and something to do with the sewer, the city and fumes. That wasn't quite the case....lol
Joe and I run up to the hospital and it is Dad in the hospital for something unrelated to a sewer and Mom was home taking care of the sewer people. It was a confusing couple minutes but funny when you think about it.
I just got a phone call from a friend I see every Tuesday. She had been sick last week and we miss that weekly tradition. She brought up a point about how important family is. Now it isn't like it used to be. Families took care of each others and now that isn't the case. When I was at part of the sewer event I saw how Joe and some of his brothers and sisters come together and helped take care of a problem. It gave me goosebumps to see that and also sad because I want that so much in my own family. I have an extended family but I will always long for my own family, warts and all. The yoga tradition is about forgiveness and so is mine.
What happened was a long time ago and the last on high dose Prednisone, is enough to make anyone crazy. I am not a mean woman. I am a loving woman who would do anything for anybody who will be loyal to the death for family and friends.
My family who won't and can't see that are fools.
Didn't expect it to end this way today but did warn you in advance.
A feeling good day and turned the magnet on the fridge to a good day. Gives Joe a clue as to how I am on any day. Off to see what adventures I can find......
Have a good one and remember, live one day at a time, you don't know if tomorrow will come.
I almost forgot, if anyone knew my friend Arden, boyfriend #2 met her on the way to the airport years back. She was opinioned and always made me laugh. She died on March 11 and I found out recently. Rest in peace my friend.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Start of a book-copyrighted
Remember if you are just starting to read my book go way to the bottom and the book starts at the bottom of the blogs and work up.
Ok, now that husband #1 has coincidentally appeared in my life I have some feelings to explore. Ok, explored them and found nothing I felt like dealing with.
It is fun having gotten in contact with him. I never thought that would happen. He has a dryish sense of humor. Just to show you things are not always what they appear to be. LOL
What am feeling? Just friendship and glad he is still alive. I could dwell on the marriage that was over 30 years ago but I'm not anymore. What happened happened and the past can't be changed. He has changed my life and has had a hand in who I am today. I bet he will be surprised to read that, ah, when I tell him I am writing my book on a blog space.(my very rough draft)
FH #4 has been coming home when he can even if it is for 33 minutes, YES! One day last week I got to see him for 33 minutes but 5 hours four days later. What do I have to complain about? Really nothing, I'm happy for the first time in my life. I have finally found my soulmate and the love of my life.
I am afraid I won't be able to live up to what he wants in a woman. I'm not supposed to live alone and here I am alone. I thought I would be ok but I need validation of my feelings. He says we will face whatever comes our way together. How can we when he is not here and I am left to face more medical issues by myself? I can't face it by myself, my stroked brain can't retain information and I get overwhelmed very easily. Oh sure I am making it now, he doesn't understand or see how hard this is. I guess I can't expect him to since he has been doing his job for 30 years. Neither of us want to be alone but he has his job and I am sitting here scared of my future healthwise and having to face it alone. Sure he can email me, if he will, or call but how is that being here for each other. I'm sure I'll be told he is being here for me...
Oh, I'll never get the dog we talked about to keep me company. How can a dog help me when I have fainted and fallen down some steps unconscious and wake up praying I haven't broken anything. I love FH#4 with all my heart and I will always be here waiting for him but how do I get him to understand that this is so hard for me. Every time he leaves to go back my heart aches and (as usual) I cry for about a day after ( leaving him when he visits with smiles and flashes!) He can't see how hard this is on me? It's easier when I get to visit him at his work, the seperation doesn't feel as hard when I leave him at his job and drive home. It seems like a piece of cake for him that he can't see how emotionally hard this is on me. If this is hard for him I wish he would tell me. Maybe he wished I would stop talking as that was what husband #3 told me a couple times, "I talked too much." Husband #3 would rather have quiet than listen to anyone, especially his wife. Come to think about it husband #2 didn't like talking to me much either. In my defense husband #2 and 3 were very quiet, introverted people who didn't enjoy the company of others.
FH#4 treats me like a queen. I'm not complaining just voicing my worries. I want to live the rest of my life with him. I know his worries. He may not know I know but I do. I pray he stays safe to come home to me and he does the same thing. We will think the same thoughts and do similiar things at the same time and be surprised and laugh about it. How in tune can two people be?
I can't wait for him to come home knowing he won't have to leave again. I think I have a long time to wait....I just want him to be happy. I don't want to lose our "happy" cause it's great! :)
Emily
Ever since writing this particular one I was awfully hard on FH#4. He is a wonderful, caring man and I have way too much time to over think things. I don't think I want to write this anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone. I can't wait to be with my FH #4. I am so grateful I found him on the COMPUTER and took the leap of faith. It is a wonderful thing and I think writing a book like this is just not fair to him. Bye..........emily
Ok, now that husband #1 has coincidentally appeared in my life I have some feelings to explore. Ok, explored them and found nothing I felt like dealing with.
It is fun having gotten in contact with him. I never thought that would happen. He has a dryish sense of humor. Just to show you things are not always what they appear to be. LOL
What am feeling? Just friendship and glad he is still alive. I could dwell on the marriage that was over 30 years ago but I'm not anymore. What happened happened and the past can't be changed. He has changed my life and has had a hand in who I am today. I bet he will be surprised to read that, ah, when I tell him I am writing my book on a blog space.(my very rough draft)
FH #4 has been coming home when he can even if it is for 33 minutes, YES! One day last week I got to see him for 33 minutes but 5 hours four days later. What do I have to complain about? Really nothing, I'm happy for the first time in my life. I have finally found my soulmate and the love of my life.
I am afraid I won't be able to live up to what he wants in a woman. I'm not supposed to live alone and here I am alone. I thought I would be ok but I need validation of my feelings. He says we will face whatever comes our way together. How can we when he is not here and I am left to face more medical issues by myself? I can't face it by myself, my stroked brain can't retain information and I get overwhelmed very easily. Oh sure I am making it now, he doesn't understand or see how hard this is. I guess I can't expect him to since he has been doing his job for 30 years. Neither of us want to be alone but he has his job and I am sitting here scared of my future healthwise and having to face it alone. Sure he can email me, if he will, or call but how is that being here for each other. I'm sure I'll be told he is being here for me...
Oh, I'll never get the dog we talked about to keep me company. How can a dog help me when I have fainted and fallen down some steps unconscious and wake up praying I haven't broken anything. I love FH#4 with all my heart and I will always be here waiting for him but how do I get him to understand that this is so hard for me. Every time he leaves to go back my heart aches and (as usual) I cry for about a day after ( leaving him when he visits with smiles and flashes!) He can't see how hard this is on me? It's easier when I get to visit him at his work, the seperation doesn't feel as hard when I leave him at his job and drive home. It seems like a piece of cake for him that he can't see how emotionally hard this is on me. If this is hard for him I wish he would tell me. Maybe he wished I would stop talking as that was what husband #3 told me a couple times, "I talked too much." Husband #3 would rather have quiet than listen to anyone, especially his wife. Come to think about it husband #2 didn't like talking to me much either. In my defense husband #2 and 3 were very quiet, introverted people who didn't enjoy the company of others.
FH#4 treats me like a queen. I'm not complaining just voicing my worries. I want to live the rest of my life with him. I know his worries. He may not know I know but I do. I pray he stays safe to come home to me and he does the same thing. We will think the same thoughts and do similiar things at the same time and be surprised and laugh about it. How in tune can two people be?
I can't wait for him to come home knowing he won't have to leave again. I think I have a long time to wait....I just want him to be happy. I don't want to lose our "happy" cause it's great! :)
Emily
Ever since writing this particular one I was awfully hard on FH#4. He is a wonderful, caring man and I have way too much time to over think things. I don't think I want to write this anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone. I can't wait to be with my FH #4. I am so grateful I found him on the COMPUTER and took the leap of faith. It is a wonderful thing and I think writing a book like this is just not fair to him. Bye..........emily
Saturday, June 6, 2009
The Book continued-
This book is copyrighted by Emily Chimner aka jaime long. No use of this material without permission of the author.
I stood in the vestibule of the ice arena and didn't see anyone who might be waiting for a date. I thought, oh no, I should have looked at the picture! I look out the doorway and coming up the steps is this sophisticated looking man who walked with confidence. I bet it is him. He walks in the door, came up to me and introduced himself. Oh my God, this is the one I am supposed to be with. Now, corny as that sounds it's true. Then the only thing that I could think of that came out of my mouth was "I hope you have money because I can't pay". Oh my God! Did that really come out of my mouth!
We sat down on some bleachers and watched the enactment of Cinderella. Now that was appropriate, here I was sitting next to a man that was causing my gut feelings to go through the roof in approval. I got a very nice man on an online dating site, go figure. This was on online date that turned out good. (Boyfriend number 1 and 2, well, we'll get to them. They were on line dates but really relationships or you know, I'm not sure what to call the second one.)
I didn't think this would work. I thought I'll go to this, enjoy myself for a change and then go home. Wow. I'm so glad it didn't go that way! We ended up picking up part of his family and going to the casino (which was cool since I had only been once) and played the slots and listened to his family member sing. I had a good time. We or at least I seemed to loosen up as he seemed pretty laid back on the way to the casino.
Once we got back to our original destination I realized how late and how dark it was. I wasn't that familiar with driving in the dark to and from Cheboygan.
I spent the night and he respected me in the morning. (I so broke the 3 date rule but it was worth it.)
I just wonder how unhappy my life would be if I hadn't taken that chance and put myself out there or remained in emotional seclusion.
Then back to husband #2. He encouraged me to take a few dates. That puzzled me. What husband would let his wife go out on dates and possibly know she was having "sex"? When you totally withdrawal from your wife and you tell her to date, personally it made me feel like a slut, a failure and a nobody. Some people have agenda's and don't care who they hurt I suppose. He's never been honest with me. He has hurt me deliberately and have no recollection. Then reject me in the worst way a man could...I know, I know, I have responsibility in this whole mess somewhere. I became ill from exposure (documented medically) to a deadly chemical. My life and the lives of those around me were severely altered if not destroyed. I carried around bitterness over being disabled and losing everything. After 5 years I think I have let it go. I can't change what happened. I didn't want it to happen. There are far worse off people in my old hometown of Lewiston, Michigan.
That could be a whole other book, and oh, it is. Called Big Oil in Small Town America by Jaime Long through Xlibris and LuLu. How clever of me to sneak that in.
While I'm blubbering over about husband #4 and final husband, I have to say I never knew love before or was ever happy before now. It is a wonderful feeling. People notice that too. My whole demeanor is changing. I am happy and I have my joe to thank for that. (I know it comes from within) We get along so well and have many things in common but know when to give the other their space. No one is going to take our "happy" away. Not a person, my darn health or his job could take away our "happy". If two people love each other anything is possible. One may get more insecure than the other but it balances out in the end. I am 51 years old and for the first time I am happy and in love. I have found the man I want to grow old with. I have finally made a good choice. He just has to live with the influence of husband number 1,2,3 and boyfriend 1 and 2. It's not all bad either. It looks like I am promiscuous but the opposite. Remember that last sentence as I go back though history....
I stood in the vestibule of the ice arena and didn't see anyone who might be waiting for a date. I thought, oh no, I should have looked at the picture! I look out the doorway and coming up the steps is this sophisticated looking man who walked with confidence. I bet it is him. He walks in the door, came up to me and introduced himself. Oh my God, this is the one I am supposed to be with. Now, corny as that sounds it's true. Then the only thing that I could think of that came out of my mouth was "I hope you have money because I can't pay". Oh my God! Did that really come out of my mouth!
We sat down on some bleachers and watched the enactment of Cinderella. Now that was appropriate, here I was sitting next to a man that was causing my gut feelings to go through the roof in approval. I got a very nice man on an online dating site, go figure. This was on online date that turned out good. (Boyfriend number 1 and 2, well, we'll get to them. They were on line dates but really relationships or you know, I'm not sure what to call the second one.)
I didn't think this would work. I thought I'll go to this, enjoy myself for a change and then go home. Wow. I'm so glad it didn't go that way! We ended up picking up part of his family and going to the casino (which was cool since I had only been once) and played the slots and listened to his family member sing. I had a good time. We or at least I seemed to loosen up as he seemed pretty laid back on the way to the casino.
Once we got back to our original destination I realized how late and how dark it was. I wasn't that familiar with driving in the dark to and from Cheboygan.
I spent the night and he respected me in the morning. (I so broke the 3 date rule but it was worth it.)
I just wonder how unhappy my life would be if I hadn't taken that chance and put myself out there or remained in emotional seclusion.
Then back to husband #2. He encouraged me to take a few dates. That puzzled me. What husband would let his wife go out on dates and possibly know she was having "sex"? When you totally withdrawal from your wife and you tell her to date, personally it made me feel like a slut, a failure and a nobody. Some people have agenda's and don't care who they hurt I suppose. He's never been honest with me. He has hurt me deliberately and have no recollection. Then reject me in the worst way a man could...I know, I know, I have responsibility in this whole mess somewhere. I became ill from exposure (documented medically) to a deadly chemical. My life and the lives of those around me were severely altered if not destroyed. I carried around bitterness over being disabled and losing everything. After 5 years I think I have let it go. I can't change what happened. I didn't want it to happen. There are far worse off people in my old hometown of Lewiston, Michigan.
That could be a whole other book, and oh, it is. Called Big Oil in Small Town America by Jaime Long through Xlibris and LuLu. How clever of me to sneak that in.
While I'm blubbering over about husband #4 and final husband, I have to say I never knew love before or was ever happy before now. It is a wonderful feeling. People notice that too. My whole demeanor is changing. I am happy and I have my joe to thank for that. (I know it comes from within) We get along so well and have many things in common but know when to give the other their space. No one is going to take our "happy" away. Not a person, my darn health or his job could take away our "happy". If two people love each other anything is possible. One may get more insecure than the other but it balances out in the end. I am 51 years old and for the first time I am happy and in love. I have found the man I want to grow old with. I have finally made a good choice. He just has to live with the influence of husband number 1,2,3 and boyfriend 1 and 2. It's not all bad either. It looks like I am promiscuous but the opposite. Remember that last sentence as I go back though history....
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